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Lalala
I'm sensing I should probably get dressed and go to work. Or at least get dressed. Lying around naked in my bed with my glasses on is not the way to spend a day. Well it is but I can't do that today.
[sighs]
Someday I'll be able to do that again.
I feel weird today and I think I can blame it on dreams that I can't remember. I do remember waking myself up from one dream and forcibly telling myself not to dream that one anymore and instead concentrated on the idea of Joey. Nothing specific. Just Joey. And the bad dream went away. I think it involved a smokey bar, cigars, and a bottle of gin. I just know it wasn't happy.
The apathy hit really fucking hard yesterday and for some reason it's worse today but better at the same time. Today involves not wanting to go anywhere. Yesterday involved not wanting to do anything. I want to do something today but mostly it's not anything productive for my life. I just want to sit around and tool on my computer. Maybe play with a webpage or two. Maybe write. Work on some little stuff for Project Britney, like my detailed analysations of her videos. Also found out last night that it's not a 10 minute presentation but a 5-7 minute one instead. A little nervous now. I have a lot to present in 5-7 minutes.
Blargh.
Will put on clothing now. Just watch me.
[lies around on her bed some more]
I'm sensing I should probably get dressed and go to work. Or at least get dressed. Lying around naked in my bed with my glasses on is not the way to spend a day. Well it is but I can't do that today.
[sighs]
Someday I'll be able to do that again.
I feel weird today and I think I can blame it on dreams that I can't remember. I do remember waking myself up from one dream and forcibly telling myself not to dream that one anymore and instead concentrated on the idea of Joey. Nothing specific. Just Joey. And the bad dream went away. I think it involved a smokey bar, cigars, and a bottle of gin. I just know it wasn't happy.
The apathy hit really fucking hard yesterday and for some reason it's worse today but better at the same time. Today involves not wanting to go anywhere. Yesterday involved not wanting to do anything. I want to do something today but mostly it's not anything productive for my life. I just want to sit around and tool on my computer. Maybe play with a webpage or two. Maybe write. Work on some little stuff for Project Britney, like my detailed analysations of her videos. Also found out last night that it's not a 10 minute presentation but a 5-7 minute one instead. A little nervous now. I have a lot to present in 5-7 minutes.
Blargh.
Will put on clothing now. Just watch me.
[lies around on her bed some more]
