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[visionshadows]

I sit alone, cold and tired, and wait for the phone to ring. I have to make a decision tonight, one that I'm already about 98% sure of but still don't want to make all the same. She's not any better. It looked like she might be getting better but this morning she was worse again. I think it's possible Kitten picked it open while licking off the salve. It's tough to rationalize this. I'm going back and forth with my decision because even if we do heal this wound, the chances of her doing it again are very high if I don't get the leg amputated. I don't want to make her live like this. I care about her too much to have her live in pain.

Tonight or tomorrow morning, I will have to put Antigone to sleep.

That hurts.

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[sister-wolf.livejournal.com]

You don't know me-- I found you through a friend's friends page-- but I wanted to give you a *hug* and let you know I understand how hard it is to contemplate putting a pet to sleep. A few years ago I had to put my guinea pig to sleep (he'd jumped out of his cage and broke his back, paralyzing his back legs). You've got my complete sympathy, cause having to decide whether your pet lives or dies is one of the worst feelings in the world.

*hugs*

[visionshadows.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

Thank you for the thoughts. I just wish this was somehow easier, like I could separate myself and make the right choice without all the pain that goes along with it. She doesn't deserve this. She's a great pig.