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[visionshadows]

I sit alone, cold and tired, and wait for the phone to ring. I have to make a decision tonight, one that I'm already about 98% sure of but still don't want to make all the same. She's not any better. It looked like she might be getting better but this morning she was worse again. I think it's possible Kitten picked it open while licking off the salve. It's tough to rationalize this. I'm going back and forth with my decision because even if we do heal this wound, the chances of her doing it again are very high if I don't get the leg amputated. I don't want to make her live like this. I care about her too much to have her live in pain.

Tonight or tomorrow morning, I will have to put Antigone to sleep.

That hurts.