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okay.

he's adorable.

that is all.

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okay.

he's adorable.

that is all.

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my stomach is turning and the sandwich i ate to keep myself awake is threatening to make a reappearance. i started drinking at 3 because i just couldn't take the words anymore. just pages and pages of deaths and tortures and atrocities that defy reasoning. i'm not even crying anymore so much as feeling numb. i don't know if i can cry anymore. i've learned about this before. i can't even remember a time where i didn't know what the holocaust was. we were taught it as children in hebrew school. we learned about it over and over again throughout elementary and high school. we were taught never to forget what happened to our ancestors at the hands of madmen. i've never learned it in this detail and i don't know if i can handle much more of it.

and i haven't even gotten to the concentration camps and the Final Solution. i just finished reading about Babi Yar and the mass executions in Russia.

i just feel so numb.

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my stomach is turning and the sandwich i ate to keep myself awake is threatening to make a reappearance. i started drinking at 3 because i just couldn't take the words anymore. just pages and pages of deaths and tortures and atrocities that defy reasoning. i'm not even crying anymore so much as feeling numb. i don't know if i can cry anymore. i've learned about this before. i can't even remember a time where i didn't know what the holocaust was. we were taught it as children in hebrew school. we learned about it over and over again throughout elementary and high school. we were taught never to forget what happened to our ancestors at the hands of madmen. i've never learned it in this detail and i don't know if i can handle much more of it.

and i haven't even gotten to the concentration camps and the Final Solution. i just finished reading about Babi Yar and the mass executions in Russia.

i just feel so numb.

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i quit.

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i quit.