fear

I'm panicking and have been for awhile now. Antigone's leg is very infected and she's feverish. I knew that this morning. Well I get home from work tonight and check on her. She's covered in blood from picking at it. I freak out because she's all bloody and her leg is even worse and she's shivering from the fever. We try and clean her off and bandage it but no luck. I don't know what to do. My baby is so sick and hurting and I can't do anything until tomorrow morning. I plan on demanding that the vet see her first thing in the morning. I'm just really afraid that it's too late and she's septic and I won't be able to do anything for her and I'll have to put her down. God, I don't want to do that because it'll leave poor Kitten who's already pretty freaked by this whole thing alone. And I love my baby girl and I hate that she's in so much pain and hurt. I want to make her better but I don't know what to do.

I feel so helpless.

So I cleaned. I took 4 bags of trash and crap out of my room. I threw away really old shoes and bags even. I never do that.

I just...I'm so impotent right now. My baby...

fear

I'm panicking and have been for awhile now. Antigone's leg is very infected and she's feverish. I knew that this morning. Well I get home from work tonight and check on her. She's covered in blood from picking at it. I freak out because she's all bloody and her leg is even worse and she's shivering from the fever. We try and clean her off and bandage it but no luck. I don't know what to do. My baby is so sick and hurting and I can't do anything until tomorrow morning. I plan on demanding that the vet see her first thing in the morning. I'm just really afraid that it's too late and she's septic and I won't be able to do anything for her and I'll have to put her down. God, I don't want to do that because it'll leave poor Kitten who's already pretty freaked by this whole thing alone. And I love my baby girl and I hate that she's in so much pain and hurt. I want to make her better but I don't know what to do.

I feel so helpless.

So I cleaned. I took 4 bags of trash and crap out of my room. I threw away really old shoes and bags even. I never do that.

I just...I'm so impotent right now. My baby...

The year in review...

The Good

- Dayse and all the time spent with her. I loves ya, pumpkin face.
- KAREN!!!
- Anna! - Orlando, DC, Philly, NYC, and MA - more good times than I can count. Thanks for everything and smooches.
- Orlando/Tampa/Puppycon 2001 - So much fun - Anna, Mel, Reg, Kyla, Alyex, Sil, Celeste, Tami, Lesa, and Red
- Jenn, Liz, and Missy and the good times in the apartment.
- Sarah - mwuah! We've been friends for over two years now but this past year has been great for us. Keep it coming, babe!
- Livejournal
- Standing up for myself and making some hard choices aka schoolwise
- Grove
- St. Patrick's Day - while fucked up and insane with the whole hooking up with Waryne thing, it's still one of the best nights of my life. I had a great time and have a killer story. Plus someone to vouch for the fact that I give good head. And he will. Just ask. :)
- Waryne gettin' some - y'all have no idea how proud we were of him for gettin' some.
- Finishing Human Behaviour and feeling so proud of it. Still.
- Embracing my lameness and utter love for the pretty, sparkly dancing boys
- The Haunted, Lateralus, Distillation, Break the Cycle, Reveal, All For You, Strange Little Girls, Tenacious D, The Green Album, All Saints collection, Celebrity, Chapter One, Rockin the Suburbs, Gorillaz, Blowback, Amnesiac...and many more.
- Joe.
- Mom and Dad
- Joey the laptop and JB the car
- The Fandom


The Bad

- Sept. 11th
- Getting fired from my job due to sex/internet problems
- The Fandom
- Leah
- Grove
- Joe.
- Drexel and the shaft. The mighty, mighty shaft.


The Ugly

- The Fandom
- Petty bickering
- The naked lady pants and pretty much ALL of the pictures from the Imax premiere

The year in review...

The Good

- Dayse and all the time spent with her. I loves ya, pumpkin face.
- KAREN!!!
- Anna! - Orlando, DC, Philly, NYC, and MA - more good times than I can count. Thanks for everything and smooches.
- Orlando/Tampa/Puppycon 2001 - So much fun - Anna, Mel, Reg, Kyla, Alyex, Sil, Celeste, Tami, Lesa, and Red
- Jenn, Liz, and Missy and the good times in the apartment.
- Sarah - mwuah! We've been friends for over two years now but this past year has been great for us. Keep it coming, babe!
- Livejournal
- Standing up for myself and making some hard choices aka schoolwise
- Grove
- St. Patrick's Day - while fucked up and insane with the whole hooking up with Waryne thing, it's still one of the best nights of my life. I had a great time and have a killer story. Plus someone to vouch for the fact that I give good head. And he will. Just ask. :)
- Waryne gettin' some - y'all have no idea how proud we were of him for gettin' some.
- Finishing Human Behaviour and feeling so proud of it. Still.
- Embracing my lameness and utter love for the pretty, sparkly dancing boys
- The Haunted, Lateralus, Distillation, Break the Cycle, Reveal, All For You, Strange Little Girls, Tenacious D, The Green Album, All Saints collection, Celebrity, Chapter One, Rockin the Suburbs, Gorillaz, Blowback, Amnesiac...and many more.
- Joe.
- Mom and Dad
- Joey the laptop and JB the car
- The Fandom


The Bad

- Sept. 11th
- Getting fired from my job due to sex/internet problems
- The Fandom
- Leah
- Grove
- Joe.
- Drexel and the shaft. The mighty, mighty shaft.


The Ugly

- The Fandom
- Petty bickering
- The naked lady pants and pretty much ALL of the pictures from the Imax premiere