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I feel strange. I'm not sure if it's a good strange or a bad strange or just an odd, out of place strange. I have a bit of a headache but I'm thinking that's from the fact I jerked myself out of a deep sleep to answer the phone and ran downstairs thinking something was on fire. It wasn't, thankfully. But there was coffee made so I have coffee. I haven't had enough to rid myself of the headache though.

I've been thinking a lot about my current situation which when looked at from an outside view sounds pretty nice: Job, school, home, future. I'm not going to debate that. It is pretty nice right now. I have a job that pays me shitty wages but lets me make any hours I want and lets my buy things at warehouse cost. I have a school that is already a million times better than the school I left despite the fact I really have very little interest in the courses I'm taking this semester. I have my family and a place to live and in a few weeks I have a big, ol' house to live in by myself when my boss goes on vacation. I have a futute because I am going to school and becoming edjamacated and not letting myself stay where I am. I also have a shitty pseudo-relationship with my ex that involves both of us lying to each other about how we feel and what we're going to do. And that's what's weighing pretty heavily on me. Besides that, I'm cool. Really.

I feel a little antsy about the birth of the new fandom even though I am following it as best I can without access to certain sites that host much of the fiction. I see a lot of this fandom's best authors heading over there and I worry a little if this might not be the death of this fandom. I've been in it for so long, almost 3 years, that I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

I think I've also pretty much decided not to fight for tickets for Nsync. I'm going to do day of and see what I can get. If it's true that Ticketmaster is selling the back first then I don't want to get shafted by them. Again. I also want to wait and see what's being said about the setup and the staging and the show in general.

I think I shall go to Best Buy today and buy the NIN DVD/CD and also something to organize my DVDs in that isn't a large blue box since I don't even remember what I have in there.

I think I should shower and finish my coffee as well. And maybe do some French homework. Blech.

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I feel strange. I'm not sure if it's a good strange or a bad strange or just an odd, out of place strange. I have a bit of a headache but I'm thinking that's from the fact I jerked myself out of a deep sleep to answer the phone and ran downstairs thinking something was on fire. It wasn't, thankfully. But there was coffee made so I have coffee. I haven't had enough to rid myself of the headache though.

I've been thinking a lot about my current situation which when looked at from an outside view sounds pretty nice: Job, school, home, future. I'm not going to debate that. It is pretty nice right now. I have a job that pays me shitty wages but lets me make any hours I want and lets my buy things at warehouse cost. I have a school that is already a million times better than the school I left despite the fact I really have very little interest in the courses I'm taking this semester. I have my family and a place to live and in a few weeks I have a big, ol' house to live in by myself when my boss goes on vacation. I have a futute because I am going to school and becoming edjamacated and not letting myself stay where I am. I also have a shitty pseudo-relationship with my ex that involves both of us lying to each other about how we feel and what we're going to do. And that's what's weighing pretty heavily on me. Besides that, I'm cool. Really.

I feel a little antsy about the birth of the new fandom even though I am following it as best I can without access to certain sites that host much of the fiction. I see a lot of this fandom's best authors heading over there and I worry a little if this might not be the death of this fandom. I've been in it for so long, almost 3 years, that I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

I think I've also pretty much decided not to fight for tickets for Nsync. I'm going to do day of and see what I can get. If it's true that Ticketmaster is selling the back first then I don't want to get shafted by them. Again. I also want to wait and see what's being said about the setup and the staging and the show in general.

I think I shall go to Best Buy today and buy the NIN DVD/CD and also something to organize my DVDs in that isn't a large blue box since I don't even remember what I have in there.

I think I should shower and finish my coffee as well. And maybe do some French homework. Blech.