apathy...

i think i've decided that i've just reached the apathetic stage of being unemployed. it's been a week now. actually in about an hour, it will be exactly a week since i was told that my employment was being terminated. and i've reached that stage where getting a job is just a nuisance and i don't really want to go about doing it. i don't want to drag myself to my old job and beg for a $6.00 an hour cashier job that i've moved past after being stuck there for 2 years. but i will if i haven't found anything in...a week and a half. ::nods:: that sounds good.

mom is still sick and called out of work again which will result in much, much more whining and pouting on her part. two days in a row so she has to go to a doctor even though me and dad have been pushing for her to do that anyway. something is definitely wrong if half a glass of blush wine knocks you out for two days and leads to extreme swelling of your eyes.

i've discovered that my guinea pigs eat at a fantastic rate unmatched by any previous guinea pigs i've had before. i put a full bowl of food in their cage around 8 last night. i came down and checked on them this morning and it was empty. that's a lot of food. and it's been about 45 minutes since i put new food in and there's quite a dent made in it. i threatened them, telling them i was going to have to make them eat the food they didn't like with all the oats in it if they ate the good food too fast. i can't afford to get them another bag of food this week. considering kitten currently has her whole head in the bowl and antigone is bouncing around the bowl waiting for kitten to come up for air so she can have some, i don't think they're listening.

stayed up really, really late again last night. ::sigh:: working on something new with CJ that is intriguing me greatly and spawned by a picture of nick playing with a pug. also still working on messed up FBI!sync with dayse and that's the reason we've both been up till 4am the last two nights. damn intriguing boys. plus i couldn't stop making graphics last night. made a new one for 'split personality' (ver. 4), made one for 'dress sexy at my funeral', started one for 'endless column'. also made a bunch 'o' new icons. like this one. ::points at pretty howie icon::

will spend today in front of computer with photoshop. thinking i might download massive pretty pictures of Britney because...yes. i really want a sound clip of that if anyone has it. i think i need to hear JC explain why he has to save many, many times. because i have no tapes and i have no way to get tapes. ::sigh::

also realized when woken up again by the dog this morning that there are worse things in the world then getting fired from a intern job outside of your major while still in college. like...i don't know...cancer or something like that. like crashing your car into a tree. like being expelled from college completely. like losing your best friend. see...all worse then losing a job i didn't really like anymore anyway

(can you tell i'm trying to convince myself?)

apathy...

i think i've decided that i've just reached the apathetic stage of being unemployed. it's been a week now. actually in about an hour, it will be exactly a week since i was told that my employment was being terminated. and i've reached that stage where getting a job is just a nuisance and i don't really want to go about doing it. i don't want to drag myself to my old job and beg for a $6.00 an hour cashier job that i've moved past after being stuck there for 2 years. but i will if i haven't found anything in...a week and a half. ::nods:: that sounds good.

mom is still sick and called out of work again which will result in much, much more whining and pouting on her part. two days in a row so she has to go to a doctor even though me and dad have been pushing for her to do that anyway. something is definitely wrong if half a glass of blush wine knocks you out for two days and leads to extreme swelling of your eyes.

i've discovered that my guinea pigs eat at a fantastic rate unmatched by any previous guinea pigs i've had before. i put a full bowl of food in their cage around 8 last night. i came down and checked on them this morning and it was empty. that's a lot of food. and it's been about 45 minutes since i put new food in and there's quite a dent made in it. i threatened them, telling them i was going to have to make them eat the food they didn't like with all the oats in it if they ate the good food too fast. i can't afford to get them another bag of food this week. considering kitten currently has her whole head in the bowl and antigone is bouncing around the bowl waiting for kitten to come up for air so she can have some, i don't think they're listening.

stayed up really, really late again last night. ::sigh:: working on something new with CJ that is intriguing me greatly and spawned by a picture of nick playing with a pug. also still working on messed up FBI!sync with dayse and that's the reason we've both been up till 4am the last two nights. damn intriguing boys. plus i couldn't stop making graphics last night. made a new one for 'split personality' (ver. 4), made one for 'dress sexy at my funeral', started one for 'endless column'. also made a bunch 'o' new icons. like this one. ::points at pretty howie icon::

will spend today in front of computer with photoshop. thinking i might download massive pretty pictures of Britney because...yes. i really want a sound clip of that if anyone has it. i think i need to hear JC explain why he has to save many, many times. because i have no tapes and i have no way to get tapes. ::sigh::

also realized when woken up again by the dog this morning that there are worse things in the world then getting fired from a intern job outside of your major while still in college. like...i don't know...cancer or something like that. like crashing your car into a tree. like being expelled from college completely. like losing your best friend. see...all worse then losing a job i didn't really like anymore anyway

(can you tell i'm trying to convince myself?)

"i wish the goblins would take you away. right now"

i love my mother. i love my mother. i love my mother.

i must keep repeating that and reminding myself that she's sick and doesn't mean to be a complete pain in the ass. she just left to go to the doctors thankfully so i have a brief respite. so far i've gotten yelled at for taking too long in the shower, for not making more coffee, for playing music too loud, for not shutting her door enough and then shutting her door too much, for not moving the car fast enough, for leaving the door open for a total of two minutes and letting the AC out even though it's actually COOL outside and we don't need the AC but whatever. i will get yelled at when she gets home because i'm making noodles because i want noodles but she made dinner and now i'm not going to eat dinner, right? wrong. i still will eat the shrimp, red beans, and rice she made. i just want noodles now.

i love my mother. i love my mother. i love my mother.

did not download lots of britney pictures. download massive amounts of fonts and then proceeded to crash my desktop before i could play with them. letting desktop rest for awhile because it's basically been a photoshop whore for the last two days and is tired.

looked for jobs. want none of them. looked for apartments. want all of them.

i've decided that the only thing that can make me feel better is lying in front of the TV with the laptop and watching Labyrinth because that always make me feel better. Bowie. Hot. Sexy.

writing a new fic. it's um...het. will not reveal more until completed.

must go hide now.

"i wish the goblins would take you away. right now"

i love my mother. i love my mother. i love my mother.

i must keep repeating that and reminding myself that she's sick and doesn't mean to be a complete pain in the ass. she just left to go to the doctors thankfully so i have a brief respite. so far i've gotten yelled at for taking too long in the shower, for not making more coffee, for playing music too loud, for not shutting her door enough and then shutting her door too much, for not moving the car fast enough, for leaving the door open for a total of two minutes and letting the AC out even though it's actually COOL outside and we don't need the AC but whatever. i will get yelled at when she gets home because i'm making noodles because i want noodles but she made dinner and now i'm not going to eat dinner, right? wrong. i still will eat the shrimp, red beans, and rice she made. i just want noodles now.

i love my mother. i love my mother. i love my mother.

did not download lots of britney pictures. download massive amounts of fonts and then proceeded to crash my desktop before i could play with them. letting desktop rest for awhile because it's basically been a photoshop whore for the last two days and is tired.

looked for jobs. want none of them. looked for apartments. want all of them.

i've decided that the only thing that can make me feel better is lying in front of the TV with the laptop and watching Labyrinth because that always make me feel better. Bowie. Hot. Sexy.

writing a new fic. it's um...het. will not reveal more until completed.

must go hide now.

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so karen is forcing me to leave my house...

realized i haven't left the house since friday. maybe leaving is a good idea. yeah.

thank you, karen.

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so karen is forcing me to leave my house...

realized i haven't left the house since friday. maybe leaving is a good idea. yeah.

thank you, karen.

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so karen forced me to go out. ::smooch:: thank you, sweetie. we just went to the coffeeshop up the street from both our houses (it's great when streets intersect at a coffeeshop) where craig conners works. and yes, craig conners is still very, very hot. with nice, long hair now. um. yeah. hot boy. iced mocha. and a help wanted sign. i currently have in my hot, little hand an application to work at a coffeeshop part-time for minimum wage! woo! this makes me happy. because it's little responsibility. it's close to home. it involves coffee, music, and many, many hours of free time while being around coffee.

also. we discussed housing situations. both of us are so itching to be out. and we decided we are just going to do it and look at the place in Twp. on wednesday. (hopefully)

brought karen back to the house to see the nsync pictures. she is so good about humouring me. she even played with the JC marionette for a bit. and gave me that 'i'm so frightened right now' look the whole time. also made her a new icon. she'sJenna Bush now. ::grins::

mom is whining. a lot. need to go take care of it. ::sigh::

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so karen forced me to go out. ::smooch:: thank you, sweetie. we just went to the coffeeshop up the street from both our houses (it's great when streets intersect at a coffeeshop) where craig conners works. and yes, craig conners is still very, very hot. with nice, long hair now. um. yeah. hot boy. iced mocha. and a help wanted sign. i currently have in my hot, little hand an application to work at a coffeeshop part-time for minimum wage! woo! this makes me happy. because it's little responsibility. it's close to home. it involves coffee, music, and many, many hours of free time while being around coffee.

also. we discussed housing situations. both of us are so itching to be out. and we decided we are just going to do it and look at the place in Twp. on wednesday. (hopefully)

brought karen back to the house to see the nsync pictures. she is so good about humouring me. she even played with the JC marionette for a bit. and gave me that 'i'm so frightened right now' look the whole time. also made her a new icon. she'sJenna Bush now. ::grins::

mom is whining. a lot. need to go take care of it. ::sigh::

shameful...

i have issues...serious, big, major issues...

Labyrinth recasted starring boyband members:

Sarah: Justin - whiny, the center of attention, kind of dim on occasion. quote "It's not fair!" must be done with a pout and a stamp of his foot

Hoggle: Lance - Hoggle is a pathological liar and has a fascination with sparkly things. Sounds exactly like Lance. quote: "Ooh...plastic."

Jareth, The Goblin King: JC - Knowing my fascination with JC and David Bowie, could anyone else be Jareth? Also, Jareth is pretty, wears tight pants to show off how extremely well-endowed he is and has big hair. quote: "Fear me. Love me. Do as I say and I will be your slave."

Sir Ditimus: Chris - The spirited, rambunctious, LOUD knight who can't be calmed down and never admits defeat. Small, scrappy, and hyper. quote: "So had enough, have you?"

Ludo: Joey - Um. C'mon. Ludo is big and hulking and loveable to a fault. He protects his friends and is just so cuddly. Who else could Joey be? quote: "Smells bad!"

The Fire Gang: O-Town - Because no one really likes the Fire gang and they are annoying and Sarah/Justin gets to take off their heads and throw them around. Plus the Fire gang can't sing or dance even though they try to. quote: "You only throw your OWN head!"

Ambrosious: Howie - I don't really know why Howie is Ambrosious. I guess I just want Chris to ride him.

that's enough for now...i've completely embarrassed myself and shown how deeply my problems run...

shameful...

i have issues...serious, big, major issues...

Labyrinth recasted starring boyband members:

Sarah: Justin - whiny, the center of attention, kind of dim on occasion. quote "It's not fair!" must be done with a pout and a stamp of his foot

Hoggle: Lance - Hoggle is a pathological liar and has a fascination with sparkly things. Sounds exactly like Lance. quote: "Ooh...plastic."

Jareth, The Goblin King: JC - Knowing my fascination with JC and David Bowie, could anyone else be Jareth? Also, Jareth is pretty, wears tight pants to show off how extremely well-endowed he is and has big hair. quote: "Fear me. Love me. Do as I say and I will be your slave."

Sir Ditimus: Chris - The spirited, rambunctious, LOUD knight who can't be calmed down and never admits defeat. Small, scrappy, and hyper. quote: "So had enough, have you?"

Ludo: Joey - Um. C'mon. Ludo is big and hulking and loveable to a fault. He protects his friends and is just so cuddly. Who else could Joey be? quote: "Smells bad!"

The Fire Gang: O-Town - Because no one really likes the Fire gang and they are annoying and Sarah/Justin gets to take off their heads and throw them around. Plus the Fire gang can't sing or dance even though they try to. quote: "You only throw your OWN head!"

Ambrosious: Howie - I don't really know why Howie is Ambrosious. I guess I just want Chris to ride him.

that's enough for now...i've completely embarrassed myself and shown how deeply my problems run...