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i got to hug my mother when she came home from work. i feel a million times better because she was in my arms and i could touch her.

found out that it's pretty much a given that barrett (my sister's friend) died. he worked in tower 2 on the floor above where the plane hit. we've searched all the lists but his name hasn't come up.

spent time with karen tonight. she, lois, and i went to a bar and just sat around and talked. i missed my girl and she's upset so i'm glad i saw her tonight.

i'm tired.

and i think i'm the only person on the planet right now who wants to write and just bury myself in the fandom and the complete unreality of it all for a little bit. i will watch *n the mix and mtt tomorrow. i will watch mtv of pop and the otl special.

because it will make me feel better...

and i want that.

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i got to hug my mother when she came home from work. i feel a million times better because she was in my arms and i could touch her.

found out that it's pretty much a given that barrett (my sister's friend) died. he worked in tower 2 on the floor above where the plane hit. we've searched all the lists but his name hasn't come up.

spent time with karen tonight. she, lois, and i went to a bar and just sat around and talked. i missed my girl and she's upset so i'm glad i saw her tonight.

i'm tired.

and i think i'm the only person on the planet right now who wants to write and just bury myself in the fandom and the complete unreality of it all for a little bit. i will watch *n the mix and mtt tomorrow. i will watch mtv of pop and the otl special.

because it will make me feel better...

and i want that.

this is just a moment....this time will pass

woke up this morning rested for the most part. lois was still fast asleep next to me so i snuck out of bed and headed downstairs to have coffee and talk with mom. she's not taking things very well, almost panicking a little. she's scared and she's been one of those people that's been glued to the tv except while at work. she works at a hospital and it's been dead. no one is out in philadelphia. it scares her. i want to say something to make it better. i really can't.

we watched the news and i have to say again that i love colin powell and rudy guiliani and george pataki. they make things a little better. bush...um...let's not go there.

i'm talking to rob and i realized that's the first person besides lois, dayse, waryne and karen that i've really talked to since this has happened. everyone is so connected to each other right now and i'm just hiding. i've been letting lois speak for me to people and i'm fine with that. i don't think i'm ready to talk to other people.

i have a job interview on wednesday and that makes me very happy. it's a bank teller position which is perfectly fine with me. it's a well-paying (for the most part) job and i can do it part-time while in school. i need something like that.

also finally got my application for school. i will get the hell out of drexel. yay!

and now...

we must go do errands and earn our keep. because that's how things work with mom these days. :)

this is just a moment....this time will pass

woke up this morning rested for the most part. lois was still fast asleep next to me so i snuck out of bed and headed downstairs to have coffee and talk with mom. she's not taking things very well, almost panicking a little. she's scared and she's been one of those people that's been glued to the tv except while at work. she works at a hospital and it's been dead. no one is out in philadelphia. it scares her. i want to say something to make it better. i really can't.

we watched the news and i have to say again that i love colin powell and rudy guiliani and george pataki. they make things a little better. bush...um...let's not go there.

i'm talking to rob and i realized that's the first person besides lois, dayse, waryne and karen that i've really talked to since this has happened. everyone is so connected to each other right now and i'm just hiding. i've been letting lois speak for me to people and i'm fine with that. i don't think i'm ready to talk to other people.

i have a job interview on wednesday and that makes me very happy. it's a bank teller position which is perfectly fine with me. it's a well-paying (for the most part) job and i can do it part-time while in school. i need something like that.

also finally got my application for school. i will get the hell out of drexel. yay!

and now...

we must go do errands and earn our keep. because that's how things work with mom these days. :)

PSA

public service announcement:
you know it's time for the reporters to take a nap when they use the word 'tragical'...

this public service announcement brought to you by lack of food and the reporters on fox TV.

PSA

public service announcement:
you know it's time for the reporters to take a nap when they use the word 'tragical'...

this public service announcement brought to you by lack of food and the reporters on fox TV.