problems and bigger ones....

[visionshadows]

okay. i don't really have any problems at the moment. for some reason that harvey danger song just popped into my head. which is odd because i haven't listened to harvey danger in about a year or so. hmm...i think i'll go put the cd in....brb

::bops around the room to Carlotta Valdez::

okay. so here's the deal. i have a paper due at 6 on what makes a teacher good? it's got to be 200 words so i can put it off a little longer and you know, shower because i need to do that.

::sniffs self::

yeah. the day after being sick and fevery all day is not the most aromatically pleasant day. i had a weird sleep last night/this morning. first off, i couldn't get comfortable. i think i was sweating out the fever at about 3am last night. i went stomping around looking for Nyquil which we didn't have in pill form, only in liquid form. so yes, no green liquid death was consumed because ew. it tastes icky. but i finally did fall asleep and when i woke up at 9:30 i felt awake and rested and i just refused to believe that. i made myself go back to sleep and it was a wonky sleep. i should have just gotten up at 9:30 like my body wanted to but nooo. i wanted to sleep until 11:30. pfft. still didn't make it. i got up at 11:00 and my body was pissed at me.

there was new SN fic today! yay! that made me happy and i read it while my mom inspected the Nsync poster again. she was studying a rip in justin's jacket intently for about five minutes while i read about Dan fucking Casey. yeah. i really have to stop reading stuff like that with her in the room. cause she'll just sit on the bed out of no where and look over my shoulder. at least it was SN fic this time. she's gets all wonky when she runs into any Nsync or BSB slash. she'll read my stuff occasionally but she doesn't like reading actual sex between them. it makes her feel dirty cause they're all at least 20 years younger than her.

so yes. i'm feeling better but i'm still sniffly and my throat is still sore but i have a BIIIIIIG cup of coffee next to me so all is good.

lance has a girlfriend. go lance! she's cute. kind of looks like tara from Buffy if you squint. and oh, let me tell you how PISSED i am that i'm going to be missing Buffy all semester. because i was actually home last night i watched it and ow! ow! ow! fucking Joss. i love him. no really. it's like when i say fucking timberlake. it's out of love. but jesus, i'm going to miss the first half of the season. here's to hoping dad remembers to tape.



i'm going out tonight after class. with joe. in philly. the old ball and chain (his words not mine) is working inventory so she's not going to be home until at least 2. which means we have time. so now i'm all nervous and worried about what's going to happen in the sense of whether i get desperate and throw myself at him because i'm that pathetic. i really want to see him tonight and i hope that things don't get funky. they didn't last time which is good. but god! stupid boy. why can't i just get rid of this stupid boy on my back and concentrate on someone i KNOW likes me back and i just don't want to hurt by dragging this person into my fucked up little world. they don't deserve that.

i'm going to go shower now. and yum coffee...

Comments

meep :(

[dazimae.livejournal.com]

sounds like your night was about like mine... sincere sympathy from my direction, hon *hugs*

Re: meep :(

[visionshadows.livejournal.com]

*hugs* right back at ya! hope things are better for you this morning, hon

[loislane11228.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't worry too much - I'm pretty sure that whoever likes you back will probably still be there should stupid boy turn out to be, well. stupid. :)

but if someone likes you that much, they probably just want you to do whatever it takes to make yourself happy, especially right now.

so, I guess... don't worry, be happy? :-D

[visionshadows.livejournal.com]

Well, I think that I want the person I like to take similar advice. Grab life with both hands and run with it. Take advantage of everything they have right now.

Because they deserve to be happy too. More than they know. :)

[loislane11228.livejournal.com]

i'm sure they know that. they just want to be sure to be where they're needed should they be needed, and they probably just want you to remember that. :)

and i think they're happy. or getting there, at least.

:)

[visionshadows.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad. :)