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Nov. 26th, 2001 04:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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okay. i'm near tears here for no good reason.
the holocaust paper...totally has stopped flowing and i hate everything i've written for the past page and a half, which is pretty much everything i've written today. it's a research paper! i can do these in my sleep. what the hell is the matter here? too involved in the topic maybe? totally stuck on trying not to just concentrate on atrocities that occured? i don't know! it hurts though...
the miller paper...well...i got done the one page i needed to turn in tomorrow. and i'm almost done the analyzation of All My Sons. um. somehow i suspect this isn't going to be that good of a paper but it'll meet the length requirments if i keep going at the rate i'm going. which, well, i'm not since i've STOPPED
argh. i think i'm going to have to cut off the pop music. seriously. i need to punish myself somehow and i'm certainly not taking away my access to Rhys' site since i let myself read a story after i've finished another page. lord knows i'm not getting rid of my reward system.
oh. laundry is done. it's still in the dryer though. when i go downstairs for more coffee, i'll get it. i suppose.
this is not like me. i swear. i used to be a good student and care about school and actually want to do well. i didn't used to cry myself to sleep because i've let things go for so long that i don't know how to accomplish them.
right now, i just want to give up.
the holocaust paper...totally has stopped flowing and i hate everything i've written for the past page and a half, which is pretty much everything i've written today. it's a research paper! i can do these in my sleep. what the hell is the matter here? too involved in the topic maybe? totally stuck on trying not to just concentrate on atrocities that occured? i don't know! it hurts though...
the miller paper...well...i got done the one page i needed to turn in tomorrow. and i'm almost done the analyzation of All My Sons. um. somehow i suspect this isn't going to be that good of a paper but it'll meet the length requirments if i keep going at the rate i'm going. which, well, i'm not since i've STOPPED
argh. i think i'm going to have to cut off the pop music. seriously. i need to punish myself somehow and i'm certainly not taking away my access to Rhys' site since i let myself read a story after i've finished another page. lord knows i'm not getting rid of my reward system.
oh. laundry is done. it's still in the dryer though. when i go downstairs for more coffee, i'll get it. i suppose.
this is not like me. i swear. i used to be a good student and care about school and actually want to do well. i didn't used to cry myself to sleep because i've let things go for so long that i don't know how to accomplish them.
right now, i just want to give up.